I must be out of my mind. I can't seem to sleep, I feel sick, and I feel alone. Don't get me wrong, I have my family, but sometimes it feels like it is not enough. I have started hoarding. Yes I am aware of it. I don't want to be. I take care of my grandson most of the time. His mom is in school. I don't sleep much anymore. I am almost to the point of not caring anymore, just me and my grandson...
I think I am slowly losing more of myself. I've been trying to take all of my meds, but there are days when I forget or most of the time, I oversleep. I sleep sometimes more than 12 hours. How am I to care for my grandson?! Does not help that Social Security sent me a thick form to feel out and turn back in, oh let's say, yesterday! I'm suppose to remember when I worked for various employers. I can't find the most recent resume. Lost in all the junk I collect, I suppose.
Well, this is it. I need to try to go to bed.
