I feel so ill today.  Woke up dizzy.  I am pretty sure it is because of the gas leak last night.  Took what seemed like forever for the air to clear up.  At least I was able to make it through the morning with dad. I love hanging out with him.  I wish I had my grandson up here with me.  I miss his little smile, his running down the hall chasing after me.

Been trying to workout.  I did it okay on Sunday.  Supposed to tonight but with this dizziness hanging around, I don't know.  I hope I get better before 16:00 hours.

Working on the Amityville Horror House (112 Ocean Avenue), Crocheting a Sapulpa High School scarf, a baby blanket for my adopted daughter, and thinking about starting work on someone's Greenbay Packers scarf.  Yeah, I know.  I have too much on my plate.  Like I have anything else to do during the day.

I am so tired.  I can sleep all day, if given the chance, and still feel exhausted.  My blood sugars are doing better since the DKA in August.  I still have problems with the dinner tests, but still taking my insulin.  The clinic, Wewoka Indian Health, finally decided to give me more strips to test with.  Was shocked to see it in the prescript bag.

Well, I am working on multiple projects.  Trying to crochet a granny square skirt, a baby tunisian blanket for my adopted daughter, and trying to learn to knit.  Tension for the knit is still a little loose, but I am finally getting it.  I am only doing the knit stitch right now.  Once I can get better at it, I will try learn the purl.  Gees, like I don't have enough to do.

I am reading The King by JR Ward and Better With You by Ellie Davis.  All I can say on both are, WOOOOOW!  Not sure what I will be reading next.  I hope it is Immortal by JR Ward.  Love her Black Dagger Brotherhood and Lara Adrian's Midnight Breed.

If you think of any cool and easy projects for me, let me know.

Project links:
free granny square skirt pattern
http://youtu.be/3EdRuM6I-3w
https://www.flickr.com/photos/ajbjaeger/5399098017/
http://learntoknit.lionbrand.com/

July 9, 2014 Diary of a Crazy Indian Woman

July 9, 2014

For two days I have felt helpless and depressed.  Jim and I are not doing so great.  I still live in Tulsa and he still lives in Shawnee.  I don’t know if we can come to a decision about our marriage.  I don’t want to let him go, but he is leaving the decision to me on as to if we should keep trying or call it quits.  I am having a relationship with Joe Jester.  He is my friend, and spiritual mate.  I wear a ring on my finger of the Kokopelli.  It is the symbol of our devotion to each other.  We are bound by love.  We fell into place like we have grown up together since our birth.  It is weird that he makes me happy.  It feels great and scary.  I just don’t want to let him nor Jim go.  And I have to make that decision soon.  I don’t want to make a mistake with either one of them.  I know I have.

Joe, he treats me like a man should.  Jim, he tried.  Still wants to try.  I haven’t been happy for a long time.  It was stressing me out.  Constantly making me sick.  I could not get out of the house to save my life until last July.  I had to.  I looked sick.  I looked and felt like I was dying.