You know that when I was young, I had lots of energy, could run, walk lots of miles, bike like crazy, and walked to the park on days when my friends were around. Today, I can't walk but a little bit even when shopping, can't run to save my life, and can only bike, stationary, for a mile or two without passing out. I haven't really been well enough to do those things. My mental capacity is not like it used to be. The medications have annihilated what little I had left. I can't cook any more, family hates my cooking. What I eat, they don't, so I have to eat what they eat. Not made of money to buy two dinners everyday just so I can eat healthier. And this is where my rant comes in. The government wants us to eat healthier. Do you realize it is impossible unless you are made of money?! We hug the line of poverty and being livable. We can't get food stamps, SNAP, even though my husband is the only one that works and I receive disability. We take care of my grandson and I have 2 girls that still are in school, technically. My youngest is homeschooled.
Where do they get the financial guidelines from? Are they pulling it out of their arse?! Any way, I just want to be comfortable. I want to be able to get my grandson what he needs to survive. I want to be able to move out to my dad's property to build a house on it so he can experience what it really is to be alive. I also need to buy homeschool books for him and my youngest daughter. We can't afford to buy all the subjects when we need to.
I am tired. Have been all day. Grandson wears me out.
